Suddenly I feel so dead inside, as if the endless nights of grooming my heart not to care was all for nothing.  one word,  just one and I’m frozen in place looking at you and crying.  why am I crying? ? Usless tears shed because I’m not strong enough to fend of the hurt. Why … More sorry


She was scared of the unknown The flittering embers of future unseen. Scared of the darkness that beckoned and crept upon her window. Her sadness and angst shone like glitter from her eyes. The fragments of her former life hung like teardrops from her fingers. Some dripping and losing the battle while others clung still … More Scared.

Absence of mind

White curtains, pure white, whistling with the wind Billowing, so free, so translucent in its delight. A blank canvas that could portray any and all things of hope and possibility. Absence of mind.   The clearness and invisibility of forgetting all that has transpired Forgetting the taste of his endless kisses. Erasing the memory of … More Absence of mind

One last time

I remember the unfathomable happiness that shone from my breast when I beheld your essence. The unmistakable tingling of my toes when you kissed my lips. The meadow of emotions that fragranced my skin all forgotten. All lost   The monster inside of me is restless and bares its teeth in retribution. He thrashes and … More One last time


FOREVER CHANGED I am forever changed. The pain of loving someone who has used your experiences and memories as life lessons are horrifyingly indescribable. I gave my heart to you and you crushed it, I never understood how you could have trampled on it with your 6 long foot.   I had forgotten What my … More FOREVER CHANGED


MY REASON I lived and breathed your existence. Your body, your hands, your soul. The tiny scars on your fingers from battles untold. The little sprinkle of gold in your eyes whenever they would unfold. The lies that were hidden behind every smile. The deceitful touches I had mistaken for enamourment. You were so clever … More MY REASON